Schizophrenic much?

I just came back from a jaunt in the park.

I ran from my office which is right on the SW corner of the park, up to the drive, up to the reservoir, around once, and back down. About 4.42m as a whole and my pace was 9:30. Uhm yeah. I really am not sure how that is possible. Like really not. It was a decent run so I was happy to push the negative mental thoughts outta here.

Using Runners World training calc (http://www.runnersworld.com/cda/trainingcalculator/0,7169,s6-238-277-279-0-0-0-0-0,00.html) if I use 4:45 as my marathon time, I should be able to run a half in 2:16. Well I know from the Bronx that was in reach and I blew it.

My training paces should be as such:
long run pace: 12min mile (ugh! too slow for comfort for me)
tempo pace: 10:08 (not fast enough for me!!!)
max oxygen training pace: 9:10 pace (which is weird bc I can run at this speed for longer than 5 min- I do my V02 max at 8 min pace)
speed form training pace: 8:30 (I do mine at 7:30-45) WHA?!
Yassos- 4:42 (I do mine at 4:30).

Interesting eh? Am I pushing too fast? Not training hard enough. I have no idea. I'm still hopeful for this marathon to be 4:45.

As a side note, my blister area on my left foot (which is the opposite of the disaster foot) is tender. awesome.

the wall

I've hit the wall of marathon training.

I'm disinterested, I'm feeling under the weather, I'm over it. I'm starting to feel flabby from missed runs and I'm struggling to discern if I'm missing them for good reasons (aka sick and best to stay healthy) or crap ones (not in the mood).

I know this is in my head. No I havent had the best season, but I certainly haven't had the worst either. I've run 18-miles multiple times and will conquer that distance again this weekend. Ok, so I've skipped some workouts, but it wasnt to sit on my butt, it was to move and unpack and never sit still. It's OK to rest sometimes, right?

I always have been intimidated with other people's mileage. I never run more than 3-4x a week. I do, howerver, XT like a fiend. My body needs more recovery time so I don't have a choice really.

Anyway, phew, even feel better post vent. I will be running 2-3 lower loops today so we shall see how I feel afterwards. I am still on Mucinex and still coughing but nothing too nasty.

I love the new hood

I feel at home and happy and grounded. I'm so satiated by this move. i cant even explain.



i had a doc appt yesterday so i snuck out of work early. i then took to laying on the couch and lounging. i still think I'm fighting some germs.


Today i went to the gym for 40 min. 30 min on the treadmill and 10 really of back and legs.  I should've/would've stayed longer and done other things but slowwwwww grasshopper, slowly.

Tonight i have an event. tomorrow i want to wake up and run and then do yoga in the pm. Thursday i will run in the pm. Friday is xt in the am and then Saturday is a long run. Sunday will be yoga and BAAAAAM! We're back on track.

MOving and other non running things

So I moved. Well really we moved. I love the new place. I feel like I've lived here for years but in a fresh way, if that makes any sense at all. I feel grounded and at home which I haven't felt in years. I love it.

Everything is unpacked and organized. Yes, everything. And yes, we moved Friday afternoon (well am, but by the time the movers and us drove through the torrential rain, it was pm. I slept 5 hours Thursday, 6 Friday, 4 interrupted Sat and finally, 7 last night. I feel OK today but it was so dusty my allergies were insanely acting up and I slept wrong? Saturday night and had a stiff/hurt neck yesterday. Needless to say. I didn't do a long run.

I know its bad. I do! I actually wanted to run,. I'm so close to Riverside Park AND CP now, it's like a treat, but yet I didn't run. I wanted to run today but had a call at 6:30 (ironically hasn't started yet and its 7:40) and it's icky rainy out. I don't want to run in the dark either so we'll have to see. I'm a scaredy cat yet.

So yea, its a problem in terms of long runs. I'm trying to not focus on it. It is what it is. This upcoming weekend I still intend to run 18 on Saturday and I'm sure I'll be fine. 3 weeks ago (on Sat) I ran 18m I am sure now, well rested, I will be able to reproduce that outcome. I'm going to concentrate on efficient workouts and making it happen and I know I'll be fine. I'm not going to have the best marathon, I know that. But I'm not going to have my worst either (let's hope!!!)

This week's schedule is largely dependent on the doctors appt I have today. I have an invasive, non surgical thing where you're not supposed to work out, but like, they can't really explain to me WHY I can't so I just don't buy into it. I am used to working out, like honestly, my body doesn't understand NOT working out more than it would freak out AT a workout.

I am disappointed, but honestly, I'm so happy with the apt and living with the man I love, that I don't frankly care about missing my run. Happens.